From random to purpose

Until now many of my thougths were random notes fleeting throught my head. I would think hmmmm I should jot that down? Then along came blogging. For many years we 've lived with chroinc illness and everything that comes with it. We don't complain and most often my husband will say that everything is fine. This used to bother me so much. I would ask him how can all be well when we do not know if our son would live or die we did not know if we would pay the next house note or even if there was enough for food?

Then the light bulb went off! Most folks are being polite when they say how are you? They are not asking for your lifes trouble in a 10 minute dissertation of pain and sorrow. For all we know they may just be getting by themselves and have a full plate of problems all their own.

The only thing is you begin to feel lonely within your own trouble. You begin to feel as if you are the single entity suffering these horrible siutations all alone.

It boils down to balance. Mixing the good with the bad helps . We try not to use absolute negatives such as always never etc.
We have to grab each and every happy thing and enjoy it . No matter how small.

I told Marqus a long time ago that there will be folks who care and folks who do not and thats fine.
It is important not to feel defeated when someone doesn't understand or doesn't have time to understand your problems.

The nice thing about a blogg is if someone doesn't have an interest they don't have to read it. It gives the listener a choice . Its not like a face to face or phone to phone conversation. In those situations someone my feel trapped and in an effort not to be rude they listen.

Because of the documentary my thoughts have become more organized. It is a major undertaking to complete a film. Recalling all the past and all the detail can be draining.
But it is long over due . Marqus and those who love and care about us have suffered in silence too long . Now will be our time to spread the word and put voices to silent suffers.

I pray that what we find as we continue this journey can be shared with you.

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